*sigh* i miss you...

Yesterday my grama would have been 100.
It was all that i could do to keep the tears away yesterday.
I knew instantly what day it was when i woke up and the thoughts flooded in, consuming me.
I wanted to do something that would help me remember, something that was HER.
I thought that maybe i would order pizza for dinner(she loved it! lol), or maybe i'd make scalloped potatoes(i loved her scalloped potatoes!), or maybe i'd just have tea from one of her teacups, or maybe i'd print out a photo of her and finally frame it...and then finally it hit me, i'd make her peanut butter balls. They were just so her. Everytime we'd go to visit, if she knew we were coming..it was the peanut butter balls.
And making them(and eating them!) was just the therapy that i needed.
I miss you grama! and sooooo wish that you were still here.

RECIPE HERE (just for pancake! lol):
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Peanut-Butter-Balls-III/Detail.aspx
(it is very simple, this was the way grama made them, only WITHOUT the chocolate coating step, and you don't need to refrigerate)

Little Debbie can fix that!

It's been one of THOSE days.
Those days where strange things happen, you have no idea who you are, or what the heck is going on, and it just doesn't seem to end.
I need to just sit down and relax and let it go and just make the rest of the night go RIGHT!
And I realized that a nice cup of tea(in my newest favoritist mug) and a Little Debbie Easter cake and surfing my favorite blogs should be just what the doctor ordered! or well just the thing that i need.
(yes, that is MY blog in the pic! lol. and check out the cool steam coming off the mug of tea! cool!)

flutterbyes :)

It's March Break here in this neck of the woods, and a time where i try to get out in the world and see and do fun things. It has been a busy week! On Friday we decided to take the girls to go and see the butterflies at the conservatory..this is seeming to become a march break trend. I love this place, it's so warm and wonderful and the plantlife is crazy abundant and the wildlife is just all around you(literally!)(there are turtles and fish in the big pond, birds everywhere, and well not to forget the BUTTERFLIES everywhere!). Here are some shots that i love...

learning to be strong...

So over this past year and a bit, i have been challenged in many ways to learn to be strong, to stand on my own two feet, and to fight for things.
Yesterday i encountered another one...
I made a quick stop at the Superstore on my way home to pickup a couple groceries. My total comes to $28something, so i hand her $40, and i get back $1something...and i'm like "could i have the rest of my change please? i gave you $40"...and well she argued with me, infront of another customer..and being the non-confrontational person that i am...i just say "well that is absolutely not possible, but whatever" and walk away...
But between lane 13 and the customer service desk i find a bit of strength again and take it up with her. I explain that i have just come from work and i had $40 in my wallet, that's it that's all, 2 crisp 20's...there is no way that i could have given her $30...she took my info and tried to deal with the issue right away(but there was no one in the cash office)..
So basically i considered that money gone, and it absolutely ruined the rest of my day :(
But i got a call this morning that the till indeed was $10 over, and the cashier would be getting talked to...
If only i could be strong enough to go back and talk to her myself about how stupid she made me feel, etc..when i go get my $10 back.

Booksneeze Review

I recently got the opportunity to read "Beautiful Things Happen When a Woman Trusts in God" by Sheila Walsh thanks to Booksneeze.com.
This book took me a while to get through! But only because I had to stop half way through and hand it over to a friend who was going through a very hard time in her life and i knew that this book could very much help in her situation. Heck it will help anyone who has a struggle in their life and needs to just relax and believe and just trust in God.
This is an amazing book that reads so easy. The writer shares stories of personal struggle with depression, an issue that very much touches my heart as i have struggled myself with it over the past 10+ years.
Following the personal stories in each chapter is also the stories of people in the bible and their struggle to trust in God.
I have a feeling that this book is going to have a very important part in my life, it's one of those books that you know that you are going to read more than once, or that book that is constantly gone back to to review/remember/reflect. It is a book that i know i will be sharing with numerous friends. It is just THAT book. That well thumbed friend that gives comfort and reassurance.

say hello to my little friend!!

ok so when you get sick, it's really all about toys that can make you feel better or well keep you in touch while you're chilling on the couch or in bed...
Here is my new friend. His name is 'shiny heinie'..cause well incase you don't know the back of the itouch is kinda chrome-ish...
And let me just tell you that the itouch is far and away the best thing in the world. I is a big big fan! :)