Just wanted to pop in and update you all.
I've done the long drive to visit my aunt in palliative three times now.
The last visit really didn't go well at all..I brought my girls with me(7 and 11) to say goodbye and when we got up to her floor my aunts daughter didn't even say hello to me but instead said angrily that I needed to respect their wishes and not bring my girls in. I was shocked and hurt. I am 32 years old, and believe that I make good decisions for my family...
Lets just say family drama erupted, and my girls did finally end up seeing her for a maximum of 2 minutes..enough to hand over the pictures they had drawn and get out of there.
But you know what? The fighting and family drama did more to scare and harm my daughters than seeing my aunt did. That was incredibly heartbreaking :(
I had prepared them for what they would see, and how the medicine was making her confused or act funny, but it was also helping her so much by taking away the pain..etc..we had talked about it for almost a week, of what she was going through etc..
So now it's come down to a text earlier today saying that the doctors believe that today was going to be 'the day'..but i still haven't received that call...so I will keep saying a prayer. She may not be 'ready' but she needs to not be in pain anymore :(